Saturday, October 29, 2011

I feel like a puss for writing this just to yell...

I hate a great deal of things, the primary thing being me. The other stuff being lies. I could go on, but that's not the point. I write, so I like stories, I'm bored so I like the paranormal, and other weird stuff. I don't understand myself. Bear with me because I'm starting to ramble... I hate things that are REALLY good stories, but they're done so that you don't really know whether they're real, or just.... god fuck it. I like things in black and white, so it's ironic that my favorite color is dark grey. 

I already live with a twisted perception of reality, Hell, I'm delusional enough to believe that I have intangible wings that are the reason why nothing spiritual seems to happen to me, OR maybe spirit-y things don't exist, 
I'm crazy, and I have been so since the day I was born.

Sigh.... GOD I'm a fucking whiner... but when you're as confused as I am you probably have a reason to be whiny... or you are gullible and crazy... I just wish I knew what to do... I've been taken with the fantastic Slenderman Shit that is bouncing around the internet, and as such I had a sighting, a discussion with my friends, and an onset of paranoia, I don't know if he's real or not. Everything in this blog is factual from my understanding. I don't know if I'm insane or not, and I wish things made sense that I liked. I don't know why I want to kill people. I.................................... I hate living. but suicide is a massive puss-out maneuver I'm having a drunken rant when I'm not even drunk... I hope the bus comes for me soon. 

2 comments:

  1. Can someone tell me why the bottom paragraph is black please?

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  2. because you speak in - and +

    i was like you once. i was once -Ike+

    then i learned a bit about suffering. true suffering.

    you will learn. dont worry. till then though, allow me to ease a worry of yours.

    your not insane; you simply see the reality. a reality most people block out and ignore.


    the question now is; what will you do with this sight???

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    Ik3
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